Short Story For Today =)

Last night, after chaos dinner (like usual) we watch ABPH.

Then, show up Sara Ali...

Me : Rauhah, look Che tau, Che tau (refer to movie Kami Histeria, dialog Fazura)

Rauhah : No..That's not Fazura..Fazura on Maharaja Lawak Mega..on Mega..Silap..(with her angry tone)

Husband & Me : Haaaaa..haaaaaa.........

As we know Rauhah really alert like a smoke alarm..If someone say wrong then that bising tone will come out....Hahahaha..she so..oo.. alert...even on entertainment..Okay..No TV show for a week Rauhah..Boooooo.....

Coincidence Same Birthday

What a wonderful power of God when two people who are important in my life share the same birth date.

Adawiya..I met her 14 years ago as my roommate . She's a nice person, although sometimes she just to easy get  "sentap" but she also easy to forgive people. I am one who did not have many friends because I am not easy get along with people but with her, I can't believe that our friendship keep lasting until now. We almost messaging everyday (WhatApp), of course. She's the one of friends that not put any interest into relationship and without profit to gain.

Ratfi..My soul mate that I met 9 years ago. We know each other through online messenger . He suddenly say Hai and asked " How tall are you?". I never reply for stranger on YM because I just not interest. But, I don't know at that time I reply him and after that we keep YM each other and now he is my husband.

The magical happen because both of them share a same birth date. 19/03
One is my husband and the other one is my best friends...

They also share a certain same interest things that totally different with me at all...and sometimes I just have a feeling that I married with my best friends because of this common. Haha.. Just really insane..


Happy Birthday dear husband because totally patient with my attitude, emotion and behavior..Hahaha


Happy Birthday dear friends that keep friends with me even I'm not really socially type of person..Haha..

My Anger Management

I must admit that I have issues to control my anger. Lately, my life getting depress with environment around me. I just hate it so much and hate everything surround me except my kids.
I really want to escape from all of this. Don't get me wrong. Maybe because I'm not myself anymore and I cannot act and do what I wanted to do. I feel my life is fake. But no life is fake. That the real things that you need to live.

So today I decided to expressed my feeling . Typing so long sentences but as usually no answer.
Then I decided to ask opinion to my group best buddies . Then as usually get a lot of respond. Guess what, because they are a girl and You automatically can guess whose that " with no respond". (> _ <)

So I still need a girl in my life. I need a friends that can hear my problems. Shhh...I need girl more than boy. So next pregnancy let produce some girl.

Young lady, please bear and stay with me ...Huhuhu

Realize Life Without Wifi And ASTRO

The good things when you live in small room without Wifi and Astro...

You start realize the things that make you doesn't care happen before this...

Now I realize that my kids talk too much..Especially Rauhah.. She's so polite and cool when meet stranger. She greetings them by say Hai Aunty,,Hai Kakak..My name is Rauhah and here my brother Raid. She talk to much with them even never meet them before. She just answer whatever questions that be questioning and if she doesn't know she just reply "I don't know". She also questioning them back..Hahaha..She really passionate in reading and writing. She done her homework.She play with her brother and really take care of him even our  environment slightly change. 

Raid also can speak a little words too..Bu, eat, finish, no and etc. He really adore his sister and sleep side by side with her. 

I almost cry when heard her conversations with Kakak that she called Aunty..

Aunty : Pandai Rauhah cakap..

Rauhah : Yerlah, at home Ibu  and Abah  always with hand phone..

How I realize that I missing precious moment ...

We not really talk each other again..

No response that make me tired and bored to talk...

That little things that really hurt me and turn me down ....

That's why..Communication very important in relationship..Now I talk to much with my kids..We start make a planning...

We talk about : What we want to eat for breakfast,lunch and dinner

                          Start story our activities on whole day before we sleep

                          Rauhah start talk that a conflict that she has with her friends at school .. (Hahahaha)

 We do homework together..Even Raid also start draw.

  

Spoil...Oh Spoiled

I always get a respond ....

Anonymous 1 : Don't simply buy a things for your child

Anonymous 2 : Don't spoiled your kids

Anonymous 3 : Never and never

I need to admit that I always spoil my kids with things when have an extra money in my wallet..I don't mind to buy a book, color pencil,toys,clothes and etc even knowing that things repeatedly ask by my daughter..

I always refused to buy a 'jajan'....

I just don't bother when my daughter screaming like hell when she want sweet...

But I'm not really like the respond like that..When you said that don't spoiled your kids...

I really want to spoiled my kids as I could...

Nothing wrong with that because its really up to you, how you raise up your kids...

I always feel disappointed when I can fulfill what their wants...eventually when you already pick up the things and suddenly you check up on your wallet..the money is not enough..OHHHHHHHH...and when you look at your kids face..like.....Girl, you need to wait..We come back later okay??? ..and she just look at you with an empty eyes..Its gonna kill me like a hell....

I don't even know if I strong enough to not spoiled my children........

Rauhah Turn 4..Big Girl..Big Sister

Very difficult to me to accept that Rauhah growing bigger..suddenly realizing pants her worn already does not fit ..and she start nagging "why you give me this pants..?apela ibu ni..its small..." and this certainly make me cry... 

I just imagine how Rauhah still in same size....

I just imagine how Rauhah still want me to hold her....

But in reality.....

She is very happy when she can press a button lift ....she felt that she was very independent when she can wash her own hands without help.........even now..

She do a lot of things by herself without help...(she refuse anyone to help her)

tooth brush

shampoo hair

get dress

hair brush

eat at public..tak bagi ibu suap..

climbing stairs 

etc.......................................

and now

Rauhah dah pandai nag the things that she was not satisfied....

Rauhah gonna turn 4 and I will cry a lot....

How many things without realizing it, had I missed a lot of things that somehow caused chaos for anything.....

Happy Birthday My Sweet Little Princess    30/12

I really hope and doakan that Rauhah gonna be a CSI scientist *still dreaming about this*

Ibu doakan Rauhah membesar dengan iman, berkat dan sihat...

Organize Wardrobe Part 1

My biggest weakness is organize and folded clothes. Indeed lazy to work done and the situation now is worse. Not to exacerbate the current situation in which bad feel depressed with my own clothes that I packed away for reasons no more space to store clothes. So the best way is to restructure existing clothing.

See....restructure..restructuring

Restructure means to organize (a system, business, society, etc) in a different way...

So mean by that, I need to organize my wardrobe in different way..

Despite the fact that I have no specific rules in this regard...

Even with the exact meaning, did not fold the clothes ....

Even with the exact meaning, just enter the basket....(not proud with that)

Even with the exact meaning, I'm not open wardrobe anymore because all my clothes in basket............

So this is my goals

Aim to organize my wardrobe

Aim to fold my clothes

Aim to throw away garbage..that means old clothes that not fit me at all...

Aim to be life in peace.....with my lovely family and my nice wardrobe....

Here the list :

Start doing the merge

Start doing the re size

Start doing the layoff

Finally...i able to practice fundamental of management that i learn...So tak sia-sia genggam ijazah... It will be continue....